Monday, October 29, 2007
what hurts the most by rascal flats
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....
song sorts of descibe what i am feeling nw.its been quite long.. still cant really seem to let go out it.. haix... tried to just keep working. keep myself busy.. organising the trip for T07... but... the trip might not even come true nw... wats the point of me trying to make this trip a success when most of them might nt be able to make it in the end... feeling so discouraged.. i just wanted to leave a good memory of p13 before i get transfer out from p13 for gd >.< looking at rui hao and me nw... it gt me thinking.. if i really get transfer out.. would i even have the time to be with them like i am nw.. i doubt so... haix. guess it most likely is nt meant to be..
6:41 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
haven being updating... sch started... monday to thurs is veri packed.. so no choice cant realy update.. wonder wats happening to me... my fren say tat i keep mood swing nwadays.. haix.. things just nvr seem to go the way ppl wants it to be.. i really just hope to be normal frens wif her... tat sms was just to tell her hw i felt.. nth more. but after tat sms... i felt tat she and me.. just drift apart.. and its a super big gap.. been thinking bout this all the time since tat night.. as i said. sch started.. maybe i just thinking too much... but somehow.i feel soooo awkward wif p13 nw.. even though i still talk to them normally.. i just feel so awkward inside.. its as if i dun know them already.. wats wrong wif me... really dun like this feeling.. i feel so overloaded nw... sooooo.. i dunno hw to explain le.. 4 once in dunno hw many yrs.. i really feel like crying.... ARGH!
7:56 AM
