Tuesday, January 29, 2008
somehw or rather.i dun feel tat nature is taking its own course...i feel tat we both are working in different directions. i feel so out of place wif u and ur frens or him.. i feel tat u and him are already somewat together... i feel tat........ i am just doing all this onesided.....haix...
been feeling bit out of normal i guess... just feel tat he's already in ur heart...
haix... maybe its just nonsense thinking on my part bout all this.. maybe its just true.. i dunno.. i just feel so .... for a lack of better word.. fucked up....
6:03 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
fucking sick of being threaten by u, fucking sick of living under the same roof wif u all. fucking sick of being controlled over watever damn things i do!
just wanna move out asap
3:38 AM
Friday, December 28, 2007
last day of attachments today. darn, sis came out.update tml
6:53 AM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
hmm. as usual.gonna start by saying tat its ages since i last blog.hahhahahahaha. 1 mth plus le ba. hmm lots of things happen during this long period of time. gt sad de and gt happy de. but to hell wif the sad things as its all over. heh.. hmmm, went for the standard charter marathon as a first aider, nt a runner, no way in hell u would catch me running. rolling maybe,but nt running.heh niway, it was bad! the starting was quite gd, but as it went on, i started getting slpy. and the runners seem to be endless, and some were taking their own swit time >.< was soooooo slpy tat i fall aslp standing and sitting. >.<
went hm onli jiu bath and slp liao.
hmmm, holis started for me. gotten my aap results. hah,i failed for the first time in poly life =D hah ,nth to be proud of ba.. can onli blame myself for my lack of attention during class. guess tat issue affected me more then i thought it would. but oh well. shall catch up during the holidays and 2nd term.haha.. hmm oh ya! i forgot bout going out wif meidan they all. was veri fun
went for kuay chap at bugis, was fun watching amy ate her first ever kuay chap.hahax then went over to haji lane, help a shop assistent catch a roach.haha
amy went off then
after which we went over to bugis junction wher i brought the bday present for my ganjie/teacher linghui =D hope she like it
after tat we went over to tcc for drinks and talking.
xiangqin and edwin went off after this so left me, jo, meidan and sharity.haha
brought doughnuts and went over to the roof of the espanlade to just chilli and talk.ended up playing true or dare
kanna dare to roll round the place.haha. was fun.after which i rush hm lorz
photos cant upload yet cos meidan and jo haven send me.hahahx. till next time then =D
7:45 AM
Monday, October 29, 2007
what hurts the most by rascal flats
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....
song sorts of descibe what i am feeling nw.its been quite long.. still cant really seem to let go out it.. haix... tried to just keep working. keep myself busy.. organising the trip for T07... but... the trip might not even come true nw... wats the point of me trying to make this trip a success when most of them might nt be able to make it in the end... feeling so discouraged.. i just wanted to leave a good memory of p13 before i get transfer out from p13 for gd >.< looking at rui hao and me nw... it gt me thinking.. if i really get transfer out.. would i even have the time to be with them like i am nw.. i doubt so... haix. guess it most likely is nt meant to be..
6:41 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
haven being updating... sch started... monday to thurs is veri packed.. so no choice cant realy update.. wonder wats happening to me... my fren say tat i keep mood swing nwadays.. haix.. things just nvr seem to go the way ppl wants it to be.. i really just hope to be normal frens wif her... tat sms was just to tell her hw i felt.. nth more. but after tat sms... i felt tat she and me.. just drift apart.. and its a super big gap.. been thinking bout this all the time since tat night.. as i said. sch started.. maybe i just thinking too much... but somehow.i feel soooo awkward wif p13 nw.. even though i still talk to them normally.. i just feel so awkward inside.. its as if i dun know them already.. wats wrong wif me... really dun like this feeling.. i feel so overloaded nw... sooooo.. i dunno hw to explain le.. 4 once in dunno hw many yrs.. i really feel like crying.... ARGH!
7:56 AM
Friday, September 28, 2007
personality test. lots of things on my mind after reading some things... if onli i have the courage >.<
8:56 AM
